Let this be a lesson to you!

So I havent written all in a long time. I know I"m a dork. In fact, I'm a REAL BIG DORK.
I just spent the last 5 days in fucking agony over some guy. See, I met this totally amazing man over the summer. At first, we were awesome friends. Then it turned into the occasional friends with benefits. *nice*. Then I didnt hear from him in a while, which was fine, 'cuz I knew he was going to be busy getting ready to get shipped off to exotic Afganistanland. *ugh*

Then I find out that over the course of the summer, he had an internet friend who was in a bad situation move out to KC. This girl kept telling him how much she liked him, but I'm not sure he was convinced. She's young, he's leaving, all that jazz.

So, after thinking about it way too much for my own good I finally got up the balls to tell him that I really liked him. It was so painful to actually write it out in an email...no, I didn't call him. I know, I know....anyway....
The next day after I sent the email, I popped onto his website (he's got awesome pix of him up there) and lo and behold.... he's got a picture of the girl on his site, stating that it's now his girlfriend! !!! !!! !!!

*I almost threw up at work seeing that*

anyway...
*ahem*

I was a wreck. I can't believe that not only did I wait to tell him, I waited too long, and he obviously didn't like me.

Well, after regaining my composure over the next few days, I again got up the balls to call him and invite him out on Thursday to see the Corpse Bride with me. (BTW, I never got an email back or a phone call until...)

An hour ago.

He's been in drill all week, and is going back many more times before the Army actually ships him out to Oklahoma before going to Afganistan.

So after plesantries, he says, "OK, so I just got your emails. Why did you never tell me this before?" "Because I"m chicken shit, I say, and also because you're leaving and I wasnt sure if I should even bother telling you." A few minutes later, I asked this all important question: "If I had actaully said something to you earlier this summer, would it have changed things?"
His answer:

"yes."

So, kids, learn from my mistakes and say what is on your mind. Not only does it save you 5 days of Pepto-guzzeling-cant eat-swollen eyes-foul moods-- it might just work out in your favor in the end.

So who knows what will happen. He's leaving in a few days, but at least I get to see him one more time with him knowing.

I'm off to Colleen's to raid her closet for a sexy shirt.
;)